was extremely angry. was. my sinful heart wanted so much to embrace this anger; i really wanted to indulge myself in being angry. i wanted to think bad thoughts and do things that are offending to God. but thank God. He kept me from this temptation. i didnt even have to struggle. the Lord just made things turn out in the way that i cannot possibly be angry anymore.
all by God's grace, really. all by His grace.
i really didnt think my anger wld cease this easily.
i sang on 10/31/2006 08:34:00 PM.
Monday, October 30, 2006
a couple of days ago, i did a personality test. it was so accurate that it freaked me out. not the surprising kinda freak out, its really sort of scary. i feel like the test know me better than i do. maybe because i've nv been able to articulate how i really feel. the thoughts and emotions exist inside me, in a realm thats beyond words. and with my limited knowledge of language, to attempt to describe them wld do them much injustice.
and its not those tests that use beautifying words to cover up my flaws. it told me what i've been trying to do in my life in a blatant sort of way. not about the superficial things that i do. delves much deeper than that.
the amazing thing is that i didnt have to answer anything regarding my life in the test. there were no questions at all, they dont know my gender, my age, my race, anything. i was just asked to rank 8 different coloured cubes starting from the colour that i feel most "in harmony" with.
psychology is such a wonderful faculty of science.
i shall post it here. if you read it and go "no, thats so not suying", then i guess you really dont quite know me.
so here it is: "You are trying to prove to others that nothing can really affect you. You are pretending to be stoical - indifferent to pain or pleasure and indeed even superior to any form of weakness. As a result, more often than not, you unfortunately act with undue harshness or severity by adopting an autocratic and self-willed attitude.
Being a likeable person you get on well with neighbours and friends. You don't need anything to 'Rock your boat'. You want to 'love' and to be loved'.
You need a friend - a close friend - and you are willing to become emotionally involved with the right person, but you are very demanding and particular in your choice of partners. You are constantly looking for reassurance and it is perhaps because of this that you tend to be somewhat argumentative, but you try to hold back - careful to avoid open conflict - since this might reduce your prospects of realising your hopes of establishing a warm caring relationship.
For whatever the reason, you find it extremely difficult to sustain relationships - that is to sustain them in the manner that you would wish. You are a very gentle sort of person, full of feeling, sensitivity and susceptible to love and affection, looking and longing for a partner with whom you can enjoy 'All things bright and beautiful' - someone with whom you can seek out the more esoteric things of life. But up to now this person has only existed in your imagination. You are very choosy, appreciative, refined and extremely artistic in temperament and it is your hope to seek others who will allow you to form and express your own taste and judgement and who at the same time may assist you in your intellectual or artistic growth.
You are being very dogmatic, insisting that there is to be absolutely no equivocation whatsoever about your achievements and accomplishments."
there may be a few who knows this is me... i think. do tell me =) wld love to know.
mayb you wldnt be as amazed at it as me. but oh well. to each his her own.
i sang on 10/30/2006 04:37:00 PM.
Thursday, October 26, 2006
there are simply too much to do. too much. i cant even bear to think about all the work. the blood pressure shoots up whenever i do.
4 chapters of soci on the test on mon. (FOUR!!!!!!!!!! *faint*) esl quiz on the same monday. business comm speech topic and audience survey due tues. esl 2nd essay final draft due thurs. persuasion exam on friday. comm theory exam ON THE SAME FRIDAY. ON THE SAME FRIDAY!!!!!!!! DR.SACHS THINKS WE ARE HUMAN DYNAMOS!!!
its not just school work. (which is already a lot by itself, as you can see.) so many events coming up~! im so glad they moved the halloween party to saturday evening. church made it impossible for me to be there, so i can stop thinking about gg and not waste the $$ and time. thank God for that.
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on a happier note, MY DADDY LIKES WHAT I BOUGHT FOR HIM THIS BDAY. wheeeeeeeee~! i was so afraid he wont like it~!!!! but he did!! yipppeeeee!! congratulations to myself!!
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im supposed to plan cell grp this week. help.
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i was in the bathroom at 2am in the morning, when a cockroach climbed in thru the bathroom door. the door = the only way out. that black ugly thing was in the middle of the only escape route. 2am = waaay past bedtime = no one's awake but me. i've nv felt so entrapped in my entire life. i was trapped in the teeny weeny space with a cockroach blocking the door!!! how did i ever manage to get out of there?! i dun even know myself. i wasnt v sober then. too weak with fear.
i shld carpet my entire house with rat poison. may all cockroaches disappear from the face of the earth.
i sang on 10/26/2006 11:28:00 PM.
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
today is a wonder-wonderful day with my darlings aka fellow lame jokers~ slk~!!!!
wheeeeeeeeeeeee~! they threw me a very belated bday party. but i dun care how belated it is~! they had the heart to do it despite their hectic schedule~! and im very thankful, i am i am!! *big bear hugs for my dearies*
we took a zillion photos. and did a trillion silly things.
twinie baked me my bday cake =) tiramisu.
pretty yes? (the cake you dumb, im not trying to praise myself. *rolls eyes*) it tastes even better =)
and the pressie~ a jewelry cum music box, with a pink teddy inside =)
so bimbotic and princessy, is it not?! i love it~! my sister wanted to give the teddy to jeanette. i gave her killer stares when she said that. wahahahahaha.
it was steamboat again =) i love steamboat. makes me feel so warm and cosy inside =)
before i put up the silly (and ugly) photos of all of us, i shall put up some nice normal ones so that you wld know we're all not that ugly.
okays here comes the stupid ones.
what's a party without balloons?! wheeeee~!
we were fascinated with the blurry images that my hp cam can take. arent they wonderful?! hilariously messy~! wahaha.
what's a party without the party packs too?! balloons and party packs come together~! whistles and silly masks and party poppers~!
i love slk. really. we arent the prettiest faces ard, but these pple have the prettiest hearts.
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went to meet my family at suntec after the party. my parents love suntec city. they say its the place for families to go. *shrugs* dun ask me why, i dunno. well anyway, we had a dinner celebration for my dad's bday which is in two days =) my dad is so cute, i asked what presents he want for his bday, he said nvm, he'll buy himself. wahahahahaha! my dad dun believe in presents, ever since i gave him one which i thought he wld love, but he hated. ooops. my bad.
i do love my family =)
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i may not have millions and millions of dollars in my bank acct, i have a wealth of people whom i love and loves me back =) thank God for each and every one of them. they make me feel like the richest person in the world.
i sang on 10/25/2006 12:35:00 AM.
Monday, October 23, 2006
grrr. finished my esl essay at 3 in the morning. im a sleepy girl. a sleepy girl is an angry girl. better dont mess with me. *ROAR!*
slk party tmr~! wheeeeee~! haven seen rahel and my twinie in a while. will be meeting mrs.takuya-wannabe later for gym =) i lurrrve slk~ i do i do~!
tingy proclaimed her love for pem on her blog. so i shall proudly post it here as evidence to prove that she loves me. "im very contented wif da frens i haf. so i dont care which freakin goon goon think he or she has da wonderfullest people in da whole wide world as frens, i'll nv ever be jelaous or envious! boooo U! i lurve my gurls =) thank u very much." (Chan, YT. 2006) see! got citation somemore! in-text citation~! she cant deny now~! wheeeee~!! she loves us! she loves meeeeeeee!
so much to do, so little time. pls pray for my health brothers and sisters. and for diligence as well~! oh and time to study amidst all the other commitments~! for His glory, i shall be a faithful muggertoad for as long as necessary. *nice princessy angelic smile*
gym gym gym. i cant wait for gym. simply liberating. wheeeeee~!
i sang on 10/23/2006 12:11:00 PM.
Sunday, October 22, 2006
God's grace is flowing with abundance in my life =) im truly thankful for that.
and thank you huey, for the pressie and the very very encouraging card~!
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new zealand and melbourne are officially off our list. no available tours to these places at allllll. so korea's the most probable choice. oh, the cold. just thinking about it makes me shiver already. brr. but i shall be thankful. at least i'll get to get out of this country. i really need a getaway. sachs is stretching us as far as he can.
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jos invited me to go judge the uol talenttime~! how exciting~! dee was supposed to be judging, but she wont be free that day. so she suggested me =) wheeeeeeeeeee~! but im supposed to meet edna to shop for clara's wedding presentation clothes. we'll see how it goes...
Every day in the UK, four people die putting suying on.
Suying is actually a mammal, not a fish.
Suying is the largest of Saturn's moons.
Without suying, we would have to pollinate apple trees by hand.
You should always store suying in an airtight container in the fridge!
Suying can't drink - she absorbs water from her surroundings by osmosis!
If the Sun were the size of a beach ball then Jupiter would be the size of a golf ball and suying would be as small as a pea!
Marie Antoinette never said 'let them eat cake' - this is a mistranslation of 'let them eat suying'!
The water in oceans is four times less salty than the water in suying.
Suying is the sacred animal of Thailand.
always store suying in an airtight container in the fridge?! thanx ah.
i sang on 10/19/2006 01:18:00 AM.
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
its now 5am. and im blogging. nope, i didnt wake up extra early. i haven slept yet. up all night completing our soci proj. mad rush. maaaaaad rush. *ROAR* we better get an A on it.
have to thank God so so much. i nv thot we would get it done. but we did~! i was all nerves just now, i was like screaming to everyone on msn. like this:
sy. says: im so high strung now! sy. says: everyone is talking to me on msn!!! sy. says: and its all abt the deadline tml! sy. says: i wan to go and die! sy. says: everytime i hear that msn sound i jump! sy. says: HELP!!! in desperate need of fresh air!!!! says: whahahahhhaaa sy. says: i need a therapist!! in desperate need of fresh air!!!! says: off ur speaker sy. says: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 sy. says: YOU ARE A WONDERFUL THERAPIST.
wahaha. then i prayed to God =) for energy and wisdom. and He answered my prayer~! im still not tired. at this witching hour. im still wide awaaaaake. =) thank God thank God thank God.
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STUPID JOHN KHOO. YOUR CURSE IS FULFILLED. THERE IS A COCKROACH RIGHT OUTSIDE MY BEDROOM DOOR. YOU CAN GO AND DIE!!!!!!!!!! NOW I CANT GO DOWNSTAIRS TO REFILL MY CUP AND OFF THE CABLE!!! AND I DESPERATELY NEED WATER!!!! *faint*
i sang on 10/18/2006 05:01:00 AM.
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
typed this last night but didnt post it because i didnt have time to put in the pictures =) but here it is now~ fully completed with the photos:
okays peeps, prepare yourselves. cos this is gg to be a long long post. better go pee/have a drink b4 continuing, or you'll have to tolerate your urgent need to pee/drink for quite some time.
ready now? okays, im gg to blog about my birthday~! yeees! my birthday celebrations~! wheeeeee~!
okays let see... the first present that i received was on friday the 13th. and it was... tadah~!