Saturday, May 29, 2004

to anyone out there
please pray hard for my sister
she called today and tried to tell us between sobs that the doctor said her baby in her womb isnt growing animore and if this continues for another two weeks, there'll b an operation to take it out.
she realli is looking forward to being a mother.
mom and dad are looking forward to being grandparents.
i realli do feel love for my nephew even though its not even part of this world yet.
how will my family take it if he cant live?
it hurts to even imagine that.
pls baby
dun die.

the shopping trip with SLK rox~
one word -- CRAZY.
thanx girls :)
laughing is the best way to relief stress and its the only thing we ever do
wahahaha.

Thursday, May 27, 2004

forgot to blog abt SLK's second breakfast day!
*GASPS*
HOW COULD I?!?!
oh well, here goes...
this monday was breakfast day!!
and boy, was it FUN.
i was supposed to prepare shiqi's breakfast and vice versa
see hong's gg to make for rahel and vice versa
and SHIQI AND SEE HONG SWITCHED PARTNERS WITHOUT TELLING MI AND RAHEL
*GLARES AT THEM* yes i bear grudges! wahahaha...
see hong made mi sum fried chicken and SOTONG BALLS
one look at it and you noe its sth that SHE will like for breakfast. not mi
wahahahahaha
but i have to admit its yummylicious :)
thanx twiny!

we offended mrs leong again today
ok i confess, we r at fault :(
(altho shiqi will nv admit it till her death day wahaha)
haiz
so we decided its time we stop making enemies
wahahah
we'll be so nice to bk and mrs leong that they'll cry when we graduate
WAHAHAHAHA.

pizza today
SIMPLY DIVINE.
the company matters too :)
thanx to see hong and shiqi u two angels :D

hol's coming!
recording!
shopping!
k boxing!
sleepovers!
slacking!
*sighs* studying..
so many things to do, so little time!
*faints*

pemers darling
better make sum time to meet up
*gives the intimidating stare*
wahahahah.

thanx qian wen for pacing mi for my 2.4 today!
you're a great help :)
thanx.

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

watched shrek with mom and dad and ling and *shrieks* big sister!
she's giving birth on july :)
cant wait to see my baby nephew
"coo cheee cooo!!"
*GRINS*

shrek's wonderful
or maybe its juz becos i watched it with my family :D
the family bond is getting stronger and stronger :)
thank God!

nites.

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Friday, May 21, 2004

HAPPEE BIRTHDAY TO MOTHER DEAR! *BIG HUGZ*
love you loads and loads :D
i got a cake and flowers for mummee yest and dad insisted on paying mi back cos he's realli realli worried that i'll have no money for the rest of the month. :) i've got the bestest parents in the whole wide world yes? :D

brother stupidly mixed up bijou and dee up and put them into wrong cages yesterday
wahahaha
ling was so surprised today how we nv discovered bijou looked identical to dee so she took dee out of his cage for comparison and found bijou instead of dee sitting on top of her palm.
wahahahha
it was hilarious i tell you
the hamsters were so happy to return to their own cages
wahahaha

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

pemers
the talk juz now was helpful.
realli helpful.
i shall say more in our pem bloggy.
but here on my blog,
i wanna tell people that pem isnt half as bad as i described them to b in the previous post
im the big bad villian in this episode
and wat i wrote in the previous post was plain selfish.
i cant believe i actualli wrote that.

but watever it is
thanx girls.

oh great.
now i pissed another person off.
i wonder how many more does it take for mi to shut up.

Monday, May 17, 2004

pemers
mayb its time that we come out for a talk
a short talk since we are all so busy over major things like the oh so wonderful tv programme at 9 every monday to friday on scv.
we all have different plans about our lives now
i think its only right to at least let each other noe.
even if any one of you think its totally ok to move on with your life without letting us noe, i plead you, pls inform us so we'll stop waiting like idiots for you when you r already miles ahead of us.
geline din even reply sam's msg yest.
and she laugh it off.
ok, so mayb im kicking a big fuss out of this.
but seriously, sam's the only one who even bother to msg us to tell us that she misses us and to ask abt our lives.
it takes only 10 seconds to type the word 'thanks' and to send it.

yes im in no position to point fingers at anyone
cos im not exactly trying to do anything to cure this broken bond
so now here i am
trying to provoke you pemers into speaking your mind abt pem

wat will happen
when ting goes to australia next year?
wat will happen
if she decides to leave for hong kong with her parents in june?
wat will happen
if geok chooses to pursue a different dream?
wat will happen
if anyone of us lose passion?
wat will happen
if one of us wants to back out?

seriously
i think its realli unfair
if anyone of us have almost made up our minds to back out of this
and still keep quiet abt it
losing passion in this
but still keeping quiet abt it
to tell you frankly
its hindering me.
i've kept this thot deep within mi for ages
AGES.
but now i cant keep quiet abt it animore
becos i dun wanna see myself being left behind while all of you fly off to realise sum other dream
yes im selfish
so there.

i juz want an answer
are you with mi?
if you say a yes, mean it.

Friday, May 14, 2004

geok, i wanted to tag this on ur blog but its realli too long.. wahaha.. so here goes..

im unhappy not all becos of you lah... a lot of other stuff happening.. heee... i need to learn to trust dear God too hee... i'll forgive you only if you forgive mi for my childishness too =( i noe criticism is part and parcel of life and i shld juz accept them... heee... im not angry at you for criticising but im juz very disappointed wif myself lah.. but to b truthful, i was a little upset with ur harshness too cos i felt that i always tried to b encouraging when pemers asks for feedback so i was realli sad when you juz plainly said i sounded horrible wahaha... i thot you din care abt how i feel hee... but its all over. =) sorry once again.

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

my friendster testimonials serve as a great indicator of my change

yes i may have been a great fren
i may have been crazy and upbeat
i may have been the most cheerful person you noe
and i realli do hope that i still am.

but yes, u and i noe that im not.

all that content in the testimonials are as good as rubbish.
cos im now juz a stupid and selfish person who enjoy drowning myself in despair.

suying thanks eugene =)
for being a fren.

suying says sorry to john =(
for damaging his md player

suying needs to learn to cope with criticism.
she usually takes it badly.

suying misses her dead hamster.
so much.

suying is troubled
but she doesnt noe exactly wat is bothering her.
so many things that happen makes her feel alone and insecure
she noes the problem lies with her
but she cant bring herself to fight it.
she gives excuses and tell lies to protect her selfishness and pride.
she yearns for sumone to reach out for her before she falls too deep.
she noes it isnt anyone's responsibility to help
nevertheless, she holds on to this hope that a fren may come along.
when realisation strucks her, she found out she is left to save herself
and all things around her
make salvation even harder.
she prays that God will forgive her
for He is the only One who is strong enough help.

suying sings to comfort herself.
and cries to numb her fears.

suying is tired
emotionally and physically.

Father in Heaven,
Help her.

Monday, May 10, 2004

i lost my hamster.
she died under her wheel.
i didnt thot it would hurt much
but it did.

it was so sudden.
brother found her dead in the cage
while i was laughing at the programme on tv.
he told me
and he sat there juz looking at chichi
for a very long time
he sat still, occasionally reaching out to stroke her stiff body
and he cried
its the first time i see a 24 year old male cry over a hamster
and i cried with him.

mother cried with us when she got back home.
my dear little sister hid herself in the bathroom
and came out hours later with her eyes swollen

we cldnt stop crying.

thats how i found out
i actually love that animal
so much.

c h i c h i . d e a r
w e . l o v e . y o u
a . l o t

Sunday, May 09, 2004

gdness geokie, you cant b talking abt mi on ur blog rite?
if its addressed to mi, i still love pem more than ever!
realli.

see hong,
i think its more of my problem than it is urs =)
pray that i'll stop wallowing in self pity b4 it kills mi
i'll need ur prayer :)
and thanx for the tag :D
and thanx john for the tag too =)

Friday, May 07, 2004

(geok dearie!!! im updating!!!!!)
LOL.

i miss rahel SO much
without the full stregth of SLK, we r kinda reverting back to our J1 slacking mode.
it juz isnt the same without her anymore
life now is like
stagnant.
its not only abt esther but abt so many other stuff that add up to a great deal of stress
mayb i realli am too sensitive
but small details and minor incidents do matter to me
a lot.
i dun laugh as much as before
i tried to make myself laugh
but faking cant convince me tat im happy
and i miss laughing
laughing with eternity
laughing with pem
laughing with SLK
------------------------------------------------------
i miss eternity
how we used to sit and talk
abt rubbish
we needed to be chased out of sam's house b4 we were willing to leave.
now
we cant wait to leave
because we always have sth more important
than friendship.
-------------------------------------------------
i miss pem
how we used to sing and talk abt amibitions
how we would cry together
laugh together
how we were together as one
five as one.
but now
our dreams dun cross
becos a hundred and one other responsibilities come
b4 friendship.
--------------------------------------------------
i miss SLK
how we used to laugh at blueberry
at macdonald's
at bk
at ourselves
how we used to sit on the grandstand and talk
abt life
abt us
abt relationships
abt problems
how we used to cry and get emotional
get closer to one another
get bonded
become sisters.
now
mayb it hadnt changed much
to you.
but it isnt familiar animore
to mi.
----------------------------------------
ting,
my nick in jap yesterday says:
'suying jia you
ur frens are with u... yes?
to be honest, i dunno'

.

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

argh
my feet hurt
A LOT
im coming down with a sore throat
sighs

i cant stand the stupid advertisements that pop up every millisecond on my pc screen

gdness mi
i think my time is near
im getting realli tired easily
my head pounds all the time
i feel faint everytime i stand up after sitting down for like five minutes

SIGHS.

Sunday, May 02, 2004

*screams* HAPPI BIRTHDAY TO PEM!!!!
cmon, scream with mi!
one, two, three...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PEM!
wahahaha

thanks to all whu turned up today :)
its fun playing bluff with you all and forcing you guys to eat
wahahaha
thank God so much =)

geokie girl
take care

sam dear
take care

pemers
this day is realli special to me
becos
a couple of years ago
this is the day we officially became a grp
a very tight grp
exactly 2 yrs ago,
we were in sam's hse
i was sick
so sick that i cant even get out of bed
we were supposed to b celebrating the formation of pem
we were all so looking forward to tat steamboat dinner
i sorta ruined the excitment and all
but you guys
nv complained
instead
every half an hour, i'll find a pemer abandoning her dinner feast and appearing by my side to ask if im ok and see if i need anything
thanks for all you guys have done for mi
siew yu im thanking you too
thanks for sharing my dream
and putting up with my temper and my pride
'wo yao rang shi jie de zhi
you heng zhi xing de gu shi'
=D
listen up best frens
i love each and everyone of you :')

'pem
zai wo xin li chang zhe
yi shou zui mei de ge
na xuan lu shi ni bian zao de'
pemer sam, ying, ting, geline and geok
happy bday!

thanks to my dear mum whu prepared the yummy-licious food!
geline is practicalli addicted to ur mango pudding and ur cookies!
and so am i
and geok
and ting
and eileen
i can go on for 1983749074092364 pages juz listing this =)
thanks to daddy sweets whu drove us! =D

thank God for my wonderful family and frens :)
amen.